Skylar’s Naughty and Nice List 2009
It’s Christmas Eve, which means one thing for my loyal readers: it’s time for Skylar’s annual Christmas presents! Last year, instead of giving presents, I created a naughty and nice list. People responded so well to it that I’ve decided to once again list my naughty and nice in 2009. So despite the fact that it’s not even noon, I’ve got a cocktail in hand and carols playing in the background. And while Santa has made his list and is currently checking it twice, I’m going to let you know just what you naughty and nice buggers have meant to me this year.
Naughty
5. Kevin Smiley
Running on a platform of breathing new life into SGA and eliminating the good-ole-boy system, you–in not so many words–blasted Kayla Shelton and myself for corruption and lack of vision. Upon taking office you appoint your brother as your chief-of-staff, showing the buddy system is stronger than ever, and you proceed to make appointments based on personal friendships and political alliances rather than qualifications. You were good to me when I resigned, for which I give you credit, and you’ve done some good work, but your lack of judgment in your appointments has earned your position on this list.
4. Jack Tweed and Jackiey Budden
Your wife and daughter, respectively, passed away and not long after the two of you descended into petty behavior and viscous attacks on one another. Jade loved you both—why, I’ll never know—and instead of honoring her memory you took to the press to publicly eviscerate one another. While we all agree that death was Jade’s finest hour, for the two of you, it was your lowest point.
3. Lieutenant Governor Daniel Mongiardo
Proving that you are still the king of screwing up, you cursed Governor Beshear for not supporting you and, seemingly at every turn, opposed the governor on coal and any other issue you could. It’s funny, because all you’ve done is ruin your own career. You began 2009 as the apparent Democratic nominee the US Senate seat being vacated by Senator Bunning, but you end 2009 a disgraced man who will not only lose your bid for Senate but has been replaced as Lt. Governor on the next go-round. Way to go, Dr. Dan.
2. Senator Joe Lieberman
Dude, seriously? Where do I even begin? You started the year on my shit list and you end it as the political equivalent of Satan in my book. You’ve done everything you can to oppose President Obama and his agenda–from endorsing McCain in last year’s election to single-handedly holding true health care reform hostage–and you’ve done it all with that arrogant smirk of an entitled buffoon. It is my sincerest hope that, in 2012, the people of Connecticut will have had enough of your smug ego and do what they should have done in 2006–rid themselves and the rest of us of your presence in the Senate. For good.
1. Every single Member of Parliament.
One of the good things of being a transatlantic sort is that you are fluent in two cultures: American and British. The expenses scandal that rocked Westminster and the whole of the UK back in May took everybody by surprise, and I found myself confused. This was behavior I had come to expect from politicians on the western side of the Atlantic. But not in Britain. If anything, this served as a wakeup call to me (and to scores of others) that Westminster was not as incorruptible as perhaps we’d have naively liked to believe. No party was left unscathed, and even those who didn’t use taxpayer money to clean their moats or claim a second, third, fourth and fifth home undoubtedly knew something was rotton and said nothing. Disgusting.
Nice
5. Dan Choi
You sacrificed your career in order to stand up for equality. In doing that you became a gay rights icon and a leader of our movement. Having two siblings in the US army, I know the sacrifices you have made and still make, and I appreciate everything you’ve done so much. You are a true American hero, and you represent what I love about this country. Thank you for everything you’re doing on behalf of my equality–and the equality of all LGBT Americans.
4. Meghan McCain
Sure, we don’t agree on everything, but in 2009 you have shown not only a new side to the Republican party but why we Millennials are so amazing and epic. Meghan, you are an inspiration to millions of twentysomethings around the country who aspire to be as poised, dignified, and informed as you are. You have stood up for equality, which as a gay man I am eternally grateful for, and you have been a voice of moderation and reason in a party that to many of us seems to be a party of extremism. You subscribe to the conservatism of Goldwater and live-and-let-live philosophy of small government and low taxes which anybody can respect. I look forward to seeing what you do in 2010 and the ensuing decade, and I have a feeling I may one day be voting for you to be my president. (A boy can hope, anyway.)
3. Matthew Sephton
Who would have known the boy I started chatting with on Facebook all that time back would go on to be the Tory PPC to challenge Hazel Blears! I am so intensely proud of you. You have shown poise and dignity with everything going on in your campaign, and as the head of LGBTory you have managed to raise the stature and presence of the organisation and really set it on course for success. You are one of the most intelligent and friendly people I know, and the people of Salford and Eccles would be truly blessed to be represented in parliament by someone like you. Wishing you the best for 2010!
2. Rachel Maddow
You have been the ONLY voice in the MSM here in the states to consistently bring up progressive points and counter reactionary arguments. Your coverage of “The Family,” including their role in the Uganda “Kill the Gays” bill, was invaluable and you have helped to raise the status and stature of progressive journalism. As an out lesbian you have also helped to raise the banner of equality in the way other LGBT people in the public eye (i.e. Ellen and Adam Lambert) have shied away from. Your keen insight and analysis and synthesis of the day’s events have allowed a progressive voice to be heard, for which I am enternally grateful.
1. All of my Tweeps, especially Joe (@joemcd), Will (@willswearsprada), Billy (@wchardin), Colin (@icolin), Ashley (@veganindigo), Jason (@jaekay), Pete (@PeteyBennett) Lawrence (@LawrenceMills) and Patrik-Ian Polk (@patrikianpolk)
2009 was the year I began Tweeting, and thank God I did. You all have made 2009 bearable for me. Knowing I could come online and rant and rave to you all was such a comfort during the hard times, and you never failed to entertain me. I’ve connected with so many amazing Tweeps, and I love you all to death. Joe, you were probably my first Tweep, and I can’t tell you how much your Twitter-friendship has meant to me. You are the scarecrow to my Dorothy in the Twitterverse, and I really hope we do get to meet in person soon. Will, you manage to crack me up whenever I’m down, and I won’t soon forget how you cheered me up when I was especially down. I hope we get to meet soon, too, cos I think we’d have a proper laugh in between sarcastic banter and putdowns. Billy, you and I bonded over being from Kentucky, being Hilltoppers and being Anglophiles and in you I found a kindred spirit. I will be meeting you soon and I cannot wait! Colin, you let me confide a secret in you and I thank you for that. You, too, make me smile more than you probably know. Can’t wait to meet you next week, too! Ashley, it was so great to meet another intellectual and activist. You have brightened my life more than you can possibly know. Jae, buddy, I love tweeting with you and I wish we talked more than we do. You are absolutely brilliant and our banter makes my day. Pete, I remember watching you on Big Brother 7 and thinking how much I would love to be your friend. Following you on Twitter is one of the best decisions I made, cos you always crack me up and bring a smile to my face. You following me back and a tweeting with you from time to time has been a highlight of 2009 for me. You’re amazing, perfect Pete! Lawrence, we’ve only just started getting to know one another, but chatting with you brings me so much pleasure. You’re such a ray of sunshine. And Patrik-Ian, you have been such an inspiration to me and your support has meant the world to me. Thank you for everything you’ve done and all the encouragement you’ve given me. I love you all!
So there you have it: my naughty and nice list for 2009. There are tons of people who deserve to be on both lists, so coming up with five for each was difficult.
I hope you all have a blessed, joyous Christmas and a wonderful New Year. Thank you for your continued support and love. Each of you have meant the world to me.
Merry Christmas.
x. Skylar
50 songs that defined the noughties (2000s)
Back in September, the Telegraph published its list of the 100 songs that defined the noughties. Reading through it, I found myself nodding in agreement at times and throwing my arms up in shock and disapproval at others.
A few days ago I tweeted the story to my followers, asking them for the songs that had defined their decade. After a few days work, I’ve come up with 50 of the songs that have defined my decade. These are the songs that, in my opinion, tell the story of the noughties—from 2000 to 2009—and will be remembered for years to come, whether because of their artistry, their controversy, or their relevance.
A few things to remember about my list:
- I grew up with music from both the US and UK, so the list will reflect that fact. This means you may not have heard of some of these songs. If not, I highly suggest you listen to them.
- This list is by no means authoritative or complete. Choosing 50 songs of that define a decade is nearly impossible, as everybody’s songs are colored by their own experiences. I’m no music critic–just a fan–so keep that in mind.
- The songs are grouped by years, but that’s it; there is no ranking, no rhyme or reason why songs are ordered the way they are.
- The annotations are accurate, as I have done my research.
- Not all songs on here are songs I necessarily enjoy, but may be songs that have simply impacted pop culture in general.
- I tried to only pick one song from an artist–the exception being Justin Timberlake, who appears on the list as a member of *NSync and later as a solo artist. If I hadn’t, for example, Leona Lewis’s cover of Run would have made the list, as would have Everytime by Britney Spears
- I tried to keep it to five songs per year, but as you’ll see, this didn’t completely work.
- I highly encourage you to debate my choices, comment with your own, and compile your own list. The more music we can remember, the better off all our playlists will be!
With that, I give you my top 50 songs of the 2000s.
2000
“Bye, Bye, Bye” by *Nsync
A catchy song about breaking loose of a no good lover, it garnered the boyband a Grammy nod for Record of the Year and is arguably their most memorable song.
“Wonderful” by Everclear
“Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now…” sings a boy to his emotionally absent parents. This song got me through the darkest hours of my life.
Britney Spears in her iconic music video for "Oops!... I Did it Again"
“Oops!… I Did it Again” by Britney Spears
The lead single from Britney’s sophomore album, it remains one of the most infectious pop songs of the past 30 years.
“I Hope You Dance” by Leann Womack
Still Womack’s only number one hit, “I Hope You Dance” was—and still is—played at high school graduations across America.
2001
“Island in the Sun” by Weezer
Though it never cracked the Billboard Hot 100 in the US and only charted at 31 in the UK, “Island in the Sun” proved that Weezer was still “hip, hip” and provided some musical escapism in the aftermath of 9/11.
“Where Were You (When The World Stopped Turning)?” by Alan Jackson
It’s impossible to discuss 2001 in music with out mentioning Alan Jackson’s moving tribute to the 9/11 attacks. Eight years later, it is still the most poignant song to be written about that day.
“Fallin’” by Alicia Keys
Establishing Keys as the preeminent songwriter of our generation, “Fallin’” captured the 19 year old the Grammy for Song of the Year. 
“Ms. Jackson” by OutKast
Not their biggest hit, but for a generation of high school students, “Ms. Jackson” provided a sick beat and a warning about the risks of teenage pregnancy. It also foreshadowed the great work OutKast would produce later in the decade.
2002
“I’m With You” by Avil Lavigne
Lavigne’s work leaves much to be desired, but there’s no denying the emotions behind her lyrics and vocals in this piece, which may epitomize the year between 9/11 and the invasion of Iraq.
“Beautiful” by Christina Aguilera
Released on Christmas Eve, “Beautiful” is arguably Aguilera’s most artistic moment—and the video doubtlessly her most daring. A song that inspired all those “othered” by society.
“Clocks” by Coldplay
It captured the Record of the Year Grammy for Coldplay. More importantly, it was heard in practically every film trailer and television show for the next two years, and it has one of the most memorable melodies of any song this decade.
“Courtesy of the Red, White, and Blue (The Angry American)” by Toby Keith
If Alan Jackson penned a moving tribute to 9/11, Toby Keith penned a shameful rallying cry for revenge against… well, he never really figured that part out. Still, even to this day, something about this song compels me to listen.
“Unchained Melody” by Gareth Gates
Admittedly more of a personal choice than anything, for a great number of Millennials (especially those from the UK), Gareth Gates is inexplicably connected with their adolescence.
2003
“Miss Independent” by Kelly Clarkson
The song that established Clarkson—the first American Idol—as more than a one-hit wonder, she showed the world that she would be around for years to come.
“Hurt” by Johnny Cash
Daring to cross genres and defy stereotypes, “Hurt” introduced Cash—and his amazing collection of songs—to a new generation of fans. It’s also one of the most moving songs of the decade, made all the more jarring because of the parallels with Cash’s own booze-soaked life.
“Mad World” by Gary Jules
Surprising everyone by taking the Christmas number one on the British charts, Jules’ version is arguably the most moving rendition of this song—including the original.
“American Life” by Madonna
Released on the heels of the invasion of Iraq, Madonna coupled it with a video so controversial even she decided to reshoot it. No song defines the Bush years better, proving even in a new century, Madge is still relevant.
“Leave Right Now” by Will Young
The first Idol ever—anywhere—produced one of the most emotional farewell songs in years.
2004
“What Became of the Likely Lads” by the Libertines
As Pete Doherty’s life spun out of control, he penned this lament about a friendship lost. (In this case, with fellow Libertine Carl Barat.) Fittingly, though sadly, it was the group’s last single.
“She Will Be Loved” by Maroon 5
Not Maroon 5’s biggest hit, though possibly their most memorable, “She Will Be Loved” defined my first year of college.
“Redneck Woman” Gretchen Wilson
Say what you will about Gretchen Wilson, but “Redneck Woman” introduced Nashville to the Musik Mafia and brought about a renaissance in country music.
Brandon Flowers of The Killers from their video for "Mr. Brightside," one of the biggest hits of 2004
“Mr. Brightside” by the Killers
Las Vegas’ best resurrects glam rock. Enough said. Though not the first single from the Killers, “Mr. Brightside” is the song that cemented their place in the pantheon of noughties rockers.
“If Heartaches Had Wings” by Rhonda Vincent
You’ve probably never heard of this song, about a woman full of regrets, and that’s okay. Still, it is the best bluegrass song of the decade. Plus, the video stars Miley Cyrus before she was Miley Cyrus.
2005
“Gold Digger” by Kanye West
Kanye is one of the most controversial artists of the decade (to put it mildly), but “Gold Digger” was one of the biggest songs of the year. And rightly so, as it’s just as catchy as the rest of West’s work.
“Baby Girl” by Sugarland
Though released in 2004, Sugarland’s debut single didn’t climb the charts until early 2005, inaugurating lead 
vocalist Jennifer Nettles as the newest diva in the country music pantheon. On a personal note, the lyrics to this song was the first text message my grandparents ever received; I sent it to them requesting money.
“I’m ‘n Luv (Wit a Stripper)” by T-Pain ft Mike Jones
Admit it—you were singing along with the rest of us.
“Wake Me Up When September Ends” by Green Day
A song about the death of Billy Joe Armstrong’s father, the video was yet another slap in the face of the Bush administration by the preeminent rockers of the day. The song struck a nerve with a nation growing weary of war.
“You’re Beautiful” by James Blunt
Blunt’s debut single may have made it hard to believe he is a former soldier, but it introduced him as one of the sappiest crooners of the decade.
2006
“SexyBack” by Justin Timberlake
We didn’t even know sexy had left until Timberlake told us so. With that voice and those beats, though, we believed him.
“Chasing Cars” by Snow Patrol
One of the most romantic songs of the decade, this was the track that finally propelled Snow Patrol to mainstream American success.
“Rehab” by Amy Winehouse
Besides resurrecting 1960s soul, Winehouse’s salute to alcoholism and broken hearts established her as one of the most talented—and tragic—stars of the decade.
“I’m Not Ready to Make Nice” by the Dixie Chicks
After being shunned—and threatened—by country music fans for speaking out against the Iraq War in 2003, Natalie Maines and the Dixie Chicks came back with a vengeance, speaking for disgruntled progressives everywhere and nabbing five Grammys in the process.
“Last Request” by Paolo Nutini
The first single released from Nutini’s inaugural effort, this aching plea for one last night with a lover broke hearts across Britain. Though he’s struggled to find mainstream success in the US, “Last Request” has still managed to win over countless Yanks.
2007
“Rule the World” by Take That
A perfect song to accompany acclaimed fantasy film Stardust, “Rule the World” helped reestablish Take That as a premier British band—and is the song I will dance to at my wedding.
“Bleeding Love” by Leona Lewis
The biggest thing to come out of a television talent show on either side of the Atlantic, Leona Lewis scored a massive hit with her debut single, penned by Ryan Tedder and Jesse McCartney. Arguably the most memorable song of the decade, “Bleeding Love” established Lewis as the definitive diva of her generation, thrusting her into the same league as Whitney, Celine, and Mariah. (Note: Yes, it didn’t come out in the US until 2008, but it was a massive hit in the UK in the autumn of 2007—which is when I first heard it.)
“Umbrella” by Rhianna
Rhianna's "Umbrella" was the defining song of summer 2007
An annoying but catchy tribute to unyielding friendship, with this song Rhianna told the world she wasn’t going anywhere. Plus, as the Telegraph pointed out, it provided the perfect soundtrack for a rain-soaked summer.
“Grace Kelly” by Mika
You can’t be faulted if, upon first listen, you thought someone had resurrected Freddie Mercury. With “Grace Kelly,” Mika helped usher in the era of wonky pop.
“With Every Heartbeat” by Robyn
Heartbreaking and infectious, Robyn proved that the Scandinavians are still better at making quality pop records than we are.
“Flourescent Adolescent” by the Arctic Monkeys
Not their biggest hit, and perhaps not even their best song, but “Flourescent Adolescent” still managed to define 2007 for those who rebelled against the previous five songs. Plus, with lyrics like “everything’s in order in a black hole/nothing seems as pretty as the past though/That Bloody Mary’s lacking in Tabasco/Remember when you used to be a rascal?” it was the perfect accompaniment to the onset of the Great Recession.
2008
“Love Story” by Taylor Swift
Swift’s biggest single up to that point, “Love Story” helped propel her out of Nashville and introduce her to an international audience. It also proved Swift as one helluva songwriter.
“No Air” by Jordin Sparks ft Chris Brown
The best duet of the decade, hands down. Though Chris Brown is now more infamous for domestic violence than famous for his music, the blended vocals of Sparks and Brown illustrate why they’re both young stars on the rise.
“I Kissed a Girl” by Katy Perry
Offensive to the gay community or an innocent anthem for bicuriosity? Either way, “I Kissed a Girl” was the song of summer 2008 and propelled Perry to stardom.
“My President” by Young Jeezy
Never a huge hit, but there is something special in remembering the election of America’s first black president—a defining moment not just of the noughties, but of modern history. This song is the celebration of a milestone preceded by centuries of struggle.
“Paper Planes” by MIA
No song better describes Britain’s and America’s irrational fear of brown people than does this anthem for immigrants and oppressed minorities everywhere. The gunshots and ringing cash registers only serve to make the song all the more memorable—and relevant.
Beyonce's video for "Single Ladies" is one of the most iconic of the decade. Just as Kanye West.
“Single Ladies” by Beyonce
God, this song is annoying, but Kanye was right—Beyonce did have one of the best videos of all time. Besides, you have to admit, it’s catchy as hell.
2009
“Party in the USA” by Miley Cyrus
If the noughties defined Miley Cyrus, Miley Cyrus defined the noughties. Surprising, well, everybody, Cyrus managed to actually produce a quality pop record that, probably unintentionally, embodied the optimism of youth in the Obama era.
“TikTok” by Ke$ha
If you haven’t heard this song yet, go listen. I don’t know what the future has in store for Ke$ha, but this is one of the best night-out-on-the-town songs to come along in years.
“Never Forget You” by the Noisettes
Sure, Duffy’s throwback to 60’s soul is more successful, but nobody, except maybe Winehouse, can touch the artistry of Shingai Shoniwa.
“Just Dance” by Lady GaGa 
When I heard this song on the radio in January, I told my best friend it was the first song that made me feel like it was 2009. Turns out, 2009 was the year of GaGa. If the forecast “Just Dance” provides is any indication, the teens will be dominated by Lady GaGa.
“Need You Now” by Lady Antebellum
An understated, underappreciated single from an underrated group, Lady Antebellum proves they are the future of country music with “Need You Now.” An aching song about longing for an old flame, it’s the best song Nashville has had to offer in 2009.
Freedom of religion is a right; freedom to discriminate is not
The Court of Appeals is expected to rule on the Lillian Ladele case before Christmas. Ladele, 47, filed a complaint against the Islington Council, where she worked as a registrar, claiming she was harassed and treated unfairly, ultimately threatened with termination, because her conservative Christian beliefs prevented her from officiating over same-sex civil partnership ceremonies. Ladele claims such unions are “contrary to God’s law.”
Lillian Ladele, a registrar for the Islington Council and an orthodox Christian, claims to have been discriminated against because her religious views prevented her from performing same-sex civil partnerships
This comes on the heels of Norwich grandmother Pauline Howe’s investigation by local police after writing a letter to her local authority complaining about a gay pride parade, in which she referred to homosexuals as “sodomites.” And less than a month since a record number of complaints were filed with the Press Complaints Commission against Jan Moir for her now-infamous column questioning whether Stephen Gately died from homosexuality. And the day after the Government failed to overturn an amendment to a clause in the Coroners and Justice Bill protecting freedom of speech for those who criticise homosexuality based on religious or moral objections.
That the amendment was included in the Coroners and Justice Bill is a good thing, as it protects freedom of speech, that most basic of democratic liberties. Jan Moir, though utterly offensive and wrong, had every right to express her views, and The Daily Mail had every right to publish her column. And yes, Pauline Howe has a right to stand on a street corner calling homosexuals “sodomites” and blaming them for every problem Britain faces from a stagnant economy to Jedward. Both Moir and Howe are well within their rights.
Which is more than I can say for Lillian Ladele. Ladele was not told she could be disciplined or fired because of her beliefs, which she has every right to hold and express. Rather, Ladele was told her employment could be terminated because she allowed those beliefs to interfere with her job. Ladele isn’t complaining that she was discriminated against based on her beliefs—she’s complaining that she isn’t allowed to discriminate against others based on those beliefs.
Everybody has their biases. We are all prejudiced against one group or another. However, this does not make it okay to discriminate against said group. The law should—and does—protect Lillian Ladele’s right to say, feel, think, and profess whatever she wants. Nobody is telling Lillian Ladele that she can’t be a Christian, or that she cannot work for the Islington Council because of her beliefs. What the Islington Council is maintaining—and rightly so—is that she cannot use her beliefs to deny equal access to government services, or to shirk her job responsibilities.
Ladele’s refusal to marry same-sex partners brings to mind another case that made headlines here in the States recently. An interracial Louisiana couple was refused a marriage license by a justice of the peace because he did not personally condone such marriages. He was allowed to keep his job (though Louisiana did look into ways to remove him), but resigned under pressure in the end. And rightly so; his personal views prevented him from doing his job, for which he earned a salary paid by taxpayers of all races.
Imagine, if you will, a gay registrar refusing to marry a heterosexual Christian couple because he disagrees with their beliefs. He finds their religion to be fundamentally flawed and the greatest of human evils. Should he be allowed to discriminate against them because of his beliefs? Nobody would argue he cannot hold said belief, but to allow him to deny a marriage license to any couple because of those beliefs would invoke the ire of the Christian Institute and every other right-wing organisation in Britain.
Lillian Ladele works a job that requires her to uphold the law, regardless of whether she agrees with it or not. She isn’t fighting for her freedom of religion but for her freedom to discriminate. Ms Ladele has every right to hold whatever views she will about homosexuality, but when those views lead to discrimination in public services a line must be drawn. Lillian Leades has every right to her opinion, and she ought never to fear the repercussions of speaking it publicly. But when those opinions lead to direct discrimination against other Britons, she has crossed the line.
It is not discrimination if you are fired for discrimination.
David Cameron supports Stonewall anti-bullying campaign
In a statement to PinkNews.co.uk, David Cameron gave his support to Stonewall’s anti-bullying campaign, saying:
I’m pleased to support Stonewall’s Education for All campaign. November’s anti-bullying week gives us the opportunity to highlight the prevalence of homophobic bullying in our schools and the impact it has on young people’s lives.
More needs to be done to tackle bullying in all its forms and I fully support Stonewall’s campaigning to combat the problem.
He joins Boris Johnson, the Conservative Mayor of London, in supporting the campaign, whose slogan is simply “Some people are gay. Get over it!”
On top of this, the Tories just ran an out-lesbian in the Glasgow North East by-election, and in July David Cameron apologised for the Tory role in passing and maintaining Section 28. And true, not a single Tory voted to eliminate the House of Lords amendment to Clause 61 of the Coroners and Justice Bill, which read
For the avoidance of doubt, the discussion or criticism of sexual conductor practices or the urging of persons to refrain from or modify such conduct or practices shall not be taken of itself to be threatening or intended to stir up hatred.
But, as a gay man, I am proud the Tories stood up–not against gay people, but for freedom of speech.
The fact is, the Tories have changed. They’re no longer the party they were 20, 10, or even 5 years ago. LGBT Britons concerned with the economy, crime, Afghanistan, and corruption in Westminster should seriously consider voting Conservative at the next election. Don’t buy into the old adage that Tories are homophobic. This isn’t 1988.
Free speech, sodomites, and you
I live in the American south, the land of bigotry, bumpkins, bourbon and yes, Bibles. Hailing from such a conservative area, “queer” and “faggot” are words I’m deeply acquainted with. Being told I’m responsible for the decline and fall of Western civilization is as much a part of my daily routine as putting the kettle on or having a shower. I don’t particularly enjoy any of this, but I recognize the fact that, living in a democracy, the bigots I encounter have every right to express their views. When possible, I engage said bigots in a constructive dialogue about homosexuality. Other times I simply stick up a middle finger and continue walking, my head held high. Living in a democracy, that is my right.
This is the responsibility and burden of democratic societies. Even odious, hateful opinions can be freely expressed without hesitation and without fear of persecution. All citizens, regardless of ideology, have a right to speak their minds.
That is, unless Labour has its way. The government is fervently attempting to pass a law which would ban incitement of homophobic hatred, which is odd, considering Parliament passed the same law last year. In fact, what Labour is attempting to do is delete a protection in the Criminal Justice and Immigration Act 2008 which reads:
the discussion or criticism of sexual conduct or practices or the urging of persons to refrain from or modify such conduct or practices shall not be taken of itself to be threatening or intended to stir up hatred.
Labour MPs are attempting to eliminate such language–and with it, any guarantee of religious freedoms–from the Coroners and Justice Bill. This is a complete violation of the civil liberties of evangelical Christians and conservative Muslims and should outrage all Britons, regardless of sexual orientation.
I’m a gay man, and I’ll be the first to admit that being called a godless sodomite is downright hurtful and utterly offensive. However, there is no inalienable right (to borrow a phrase from my American heritage) against being offended. If anything, the inalienable human right is the freedom of expression, to pronounce your views, no matter how atrocious and deplorable, without the fear of persecution.
It’s this right that Pauline Howe, a 67-year-old grandmother, thought she was exercising when she wrote to her local authority, the Norwich Council, complaining about a gay pride parade on the grounds that the “perverted sexual practises” of “sodomites” are responsible for “the downfall of every empire.” I admit, if I saw Mrs Howe, I would tell her exactly what I think about her opinion and where she can put that Bible.
Because that’s my right, the same as it is Mrs Howe’s right to express her odious views. Freedom of speech doesn’t just protect those you agree with. More importantly, it protects the rights of those you disagree with. The freedom to speak your mind about any deeply held convictions you have, regardless of how offensive they are, is the hallmark of a liberal democracy. As a human being, you possess an innate right to express yourself.
Any society which begins to legislate thoughts and feelings–no matter how disgusting–is a society dangerously on the verge of losing its liberties. We look back on the trial of Oscar Wilde, who was prosecuted for “gross indecency” and who had to defend his works against accusations of “perversion” with a level of disgust rightly deserved by such fascist laws restricting one’s ability to love and express the truth within you. Yet here we are, in 2009, with the shoe on the other foot, doing the same thing. Only this time, instead of legislating against gays, we’re legislating against Christians, Muslims, and any pious citizen who dares be publicly critical of homosexuality.
Ed West put it brilliantly in his 28 October blog at the Telegraph:
Hating cannot [be] a crime, because it’s an emotion, not an action, and those who wish to make emotions and thoughts criminal are the enemies of freedom and liberal democracy. They are the ones creating a form of theocracy, in which we are punished for thoughts, rather than actions.
Those actions are what we need to be worried about. As I reported following the assault of James Parkes, the 22 year old trainee cop who was brutally attacked in Liverpool in what police are calling a homophobic hate crime, violence against the LGBT community is on the rise. Rather than focus on curbing this disturbing trend, Labour is intent on criminalizing speech. Lord Dear, the crossbench peer and respected former chief constable, wrote in The House Magazine this past July that the judgment of police officers will be severely restricted, should the new law pass:
An officer is bound to record and fully investigate the incident, even if he is pretty sure it will never lead to a conviction. Such is the wooden, automatic response demanded of our police officers, who are already dogged by targets and discouraged from thinking for themselves.
What this essentially amounts to is a “boy who cried wolf” syndrome, where the police are busy investigating ever claim made by any offended gay or lesbian person, even if no true hate crime has been committed. More importantly, it diminishes the effects of true homophobia–the assault on James Parkes, the murder of Michael Causer–which hinders any progress gay and lesbian Britons hope to make. It is impossible to achieve social equality at the expense of our opponents’ legal equality. All this does is foster resentment, winning us few allies in the process.
Homophobia is a real issue in Britain. In a poll published last year in the Observer, 24% of Britons said they would recriminialise homosexual sex. However, by prohibiting this 24% from speaking their minds, this government is only worsening the situation by ramping up the animosity they feel toward LGBT people. Not only that, but if they can no longer publicly speak their minds, the gay and lesbian community loses a valuable chance at having a constructive exchange with homophobes and heterosexists, making it that much harder to win the hearts and minds of these people. Instead, we drive their homophobia underground, where it can pass undetected, festering like an open wound on society.
Currently, in the United States, there is a movement away from pretending we are “color blind” and engaging in a frank, honest discussion about race and racism. The same can–and should–be done regarding homosexuality and homophobia, but laws such as this make it that much difficult to truly engage in any meaningful conversation. Without such a conversation, homophobia will continue to flourish.
Perhaps, more importantly, though is the fundamental right all Britons possess. It wasn’t but a few decades ago that gay and lesbian people were the ones being silenced and oppressed. Now, Labour is guilty of doing the same thing to those who disagree with homosexuality. Whatever their reasons, these people feel as strongly in their position as I do in mine, and they should have the freedom to express it openly. Turnabout is fair play; as I have every right to criticize their religion, they ought to have every right to criticize my sexual orientation.
Restrictions on freedom of speech should concern all free-thinking democrats, as any infringement upon the liberties of our neighbors is a potential infringement upon the liberties we ourselves enjoy. LGBT Britons know what it is like to be intimidated to speak your most personal truths, and I should hope nobody would inflict such fear on another human being, no matter how vehemently we disagree with them.
I’ll throw Labour a bone and say their intentions are noble, but misguided. Instead of focusing on criminalizing the words being spoken, we ought to focus on changing the minds being lost. After all, it was the virtues of democracy, including freedom of speech, that advanced the cause of LGBT rights.
Brown, New Labour fail as homophobic hate crimes increase dramatically
A month or so ago, I announced my next research project would be on the role Section 28 played in reigniting the gay rights movement in the late 80s. To my chagrin, I was met by two responses from LGBT Britons: a collective yawn coupled with a resounding scoff. I was told Section 28 hadn’t effected anything, wasn’t worth researching, and that there was now no homophobia in the UK. One follower of mine on Twitter went so far as to say the only problems a gay Briton has are ones brought upon himself.
However, for those paying attention this year, the notion that gay Britons are immune to homophobia and violence has been utterly shattered. Last August, 18 year old Michael Causer, of Liverpool, died following a homophobic attack in late July. In November of last year, David Cooper, 28, was beaten to death at his flat in Woolwich after a night of drinking in Soho. Back in March, 59 year old Gerry Edwards and his partner were the victims of a hate crime at their own flat; Edwards died as a result of stab wounds. In July, Edward Highwood, 79, was murdered at his home in Greenwich in what neighbors fear was a gay hate crime. And two weeks ago, 62 year old Ian Baynham was beaten to death in Trafalgar Square after a woman shouted homophobic slurs at him.
Now, in a hospital in Liverpool, trainee cop James Parkes, 22, fights for his life after being beaten by a gang of youths on Stanley Street, the heart of the city’s unofficial gay district. He had been enjoying a night out on the town with his partner and friends. Police suspect the attack on Parkes, too, is a hate crime.
James Parkes, 22, was attacked after a night out with his partner and friends. Police suspect the attack on Parkes, too, is a hate crime.
This disturbing trend in homophobic assaults and murders is something the British public can ill afford to ignore. I fail to understand the absence of a collective outrage. When Jan Moir’s infamous column regarding Stephen Gately’s death appeared in the Daily Mail, Britain erupted in a firestorm of controversy. But though her words were odious and offensive, Jan Moir didn’t actually kill Stephen Gately. Instead, as Janet Street Porter pointed out in her own column in the Mail, being gay did kill a man the week Mr Gately died, but it wasn’t Mr Gately: it was Mr Baynham.
Now, it looks as though we are yet again prepared to turn a blind eye to the blatant homophobia LGBT Britons face. This is a serious national issue which must be addressed. Britain must face the ugliness of its own reflection in order to make change.
For it is not simply hate crimes against gay men which is the problem; indeed, such crimes are only a symptom of a wider issue facing the country. Mr Causer was killed by two teenage men. Mr Cooper was murdered by a 19 year old Algerian asylum seeker. Mr. Baynham was attacked by two female teenagers. And now Mr Parkes fights for his life because of a violent pack of unforgiving youths. All this in addition to 2008’s horrendous epidemic of knife crime, perpetrated largely by teenagers.
Cases like these, as well as those of knife crime victims Rob Knox, Ben Kinsella, and Jimmy Mizen, amongst dozens of others, underscore two paramount needs. First, we must endeavor to understand what about our culture has led youths to see violence—regardless of whether the crime is a homophobic beating or a youth-on-youth stabbing—as socially acceptable. Then we must strengthen laws designed to combat such violence so as they serve not only as a vehicle to punish such offenses, but as a deterrent to their ever being committed.
Sixteen year old Ben Kinsella was stabbed to death last year
On both these counts, Gordon Brown and the Labour government have failed miserably. Since Gordon Brown became Prime Minister, instances of both homophobic hate crimes and knife crime have risen substantially. Though Jack Straw and his ilk insist that Labour is “tough on crime,” every time you open a newspaper you’re hearing of another violent attack perpetrated by a British youth.
Let us not kid ourselves—the policies of this government have a major correlation to the epidemic of violence facing the nation today. If we are completely honest, we will acknowledge that a good portion of these crimes result from the lack of assimilation of immigrants, who often come from impoverished, war-torn areas where violence ins the norm. Consequently, they live in urban ghettos and find themselves in squalor and poverty. Poverty breeds gangs which breed crime. In attempting to remain politically correct and embrace a multicultural society, this government has neglected the needs of immigrants and created a new class of poor and working poor people, condemning them to live in impoverished slums instead of providing them with the tools necessary to become successful, productive British citizens.
We must then look at why British youths—regardless of race or national origin—are embracing a culture of violence. To this question there are no easy answers. The Labour Government has provided far too lenient of sentences for perpetrators, and its policies of “education” (by showing perpetrators victims of knife crimes in hospital, for example) are a miserable failure. Indeed, many offenders receive little more than a fine after being caught carrying a knife, which hardly bolsters Labour’s claim to be “tough on crime.”
We must also be sure to teach our children to respect differences. In cases like Michael Causer and now James Parkes, homophobia has reared its ugly head. Just as we must accept that the policies of this government have failed, we must also accept that society has failed itself. For too long homophobic slurs have been socially acceptable, and for too long violent images have been allowed to permeate television, films, and video games. Parents must take responsibility for what they allow their children to be exposed to, as well as emphasizing the value of every human life.
Until Britain can honestly address the issues it faces, and until a government is elected that is equipped and ready to handle the problem, the country cannot begin to counter the staggering and alarming increase in violent crime.
Where the Wild Queens Are (the original, unedited version)
This is the unedited version of my feature, which ran in the last issue of Rise Over Run Magazine. As the new issue comes out soon, in which I have a feature on Millennials at the National Equality March, I wanted to post this here, as well.
He runs his hands through my thick, jet black hair, a devious glint in his eye. My leg is thrown over his shoulders and we’re shedding clothing left and right. He’s only an inch or so taller than me and fairly scrawny by my standards, not my usual type at all. But then again, in a town this size, it’s hard to have a usual type. You pretty much have to take what you can get. That’s not to say he isn’t cute, though; this boys is definitely a looker. His gray eyes have a sparkle and his thick, black rimmed glasses slide down his patrician nose as he tosses his shirt on top of his Chucks, tossed haphazardly on the hardwood floor of my dark room. I hear my roommate move outside my door, but I’m too preoccupied with this boy in my bed.
We kiss deeply, and I moan. “Mmm… I love it,” he says, grinning devilishly. “I love it when a boy says my name.”
I keep this in my mind, fully intending on using it to my advantage. But I freeze. I pull back and look him in the eyes, the light from the streetlamp bathing us in a yellow glow. “What is your name?”
“Grayson1,” he says, going in for another kiss. He isn’t fazed by my party foul at all. “And yours?”
“Skylar,” I say, making a mental note to submit this to FMyLife as soon as he leaves.
I would love to say this is an exception, rather than a rule. But awkward moments like this seem to define gay dating in Bowling Green, or at least my experiences. To begin with, with the exception of two or three, every guy I’ve dated since moving to town in 2004 has been closeted. Like the guy who dumped me for Jesus. Or the boy who lied to me about being an SAE, like that would impress me. (I would have settled for a Kappa Sig.) Or the boy who left his sleeping girlfriend on the sofa, took her car, and came over to meet up with me. I’ve been pretty unlucky in love. But don’t feel sorry for me. It’s my own damn fault.
Or is it? I became curious as to why I wasn’t meeting any quality men. I mean, the gay men have to be out there, right? Surely they were out there waving rainbow flags and dancing to Lady Gaga, and I just hadn’t been privy to their presence. There had to be more than closeted fraternity boys and secretive bisexual hipsters to date. Right?
I’ve never been a regular on the gay scene in Bowling Green. This lovely queen I knew back in the day used to have parties every Monday that always had a youthful gay turnout, but I haven’t been to one in years and honestly have no clue if he still lives in town. Those parties used to be the social event of the week for gay men and the women who love them. But where are the gay men hanging out now? Had I failed to get the memo? Surely they are somewhere.
When I first started at WKU in Fall 2004, the Outlet Resource Center was open in McCormack Hall. A center focusing on outreach to lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgendered and questioning (LGBTQ) students, I remember my time there fondly. It was always full of friendly faces and people, often hall directors, who were willing to listen to your problems. Because of the level of confidentiality, the Outlet was a safe space for LGBTQ students, many of whom faced prejudice and discrimination on a daily basis, to congregate. I firmly believe that it was the Outlet that made my first two years at WKU so easy, because it provided me with a support network I might not have had.
However, Housing and Residence Life closed the Outlet in 2007 and now uses the space as storage. As if turning a gay and lesbian resource center into a closet wasn’t bad enough, WKU never bothered to find the center a new home, and the only place gay and lesbian students had to go ceased to exist. So where had all the gay boys gone?
Where the boys aren’t
Setting out to find this town’s mythical gay scene is a lot like setting out to find Atlantis: everybody has an idea of where it might be and what it’s like, and it sure sounds magical, but nobody’s really ever been there. I ask Dustin Bell, a senior theater major, what he’d heard of the local gay scene. “That it exists,” he says rather tongue-in-cheek. That’s all Dustin seems to know about the gay scene. I ask him how he met men, and he answers bluntly: “I don’t.”
Ask any gay man or lesbian on campus and they’ll tell you that there is a gay scene in town; they just don’t know where it is. Every little lesbian or giddy gay boy seems to think they’re the only one being left out. There isn’t an official gay bar in town (the closest is in Nashville), though there is a monthly drag show at Ellis Place.
The lack of a local watering hole hinders the development of any gay community, according to “Mark” and “Bill,” a thirty-something couple I spoke to. They asked not to be identified because they are not out to their families.
“We are just roommates to most,” Mark explained. I met Mark and Bill on Adam4Adam, a website that, according to its homepage, aims to “help you find new friends and create new relationships quickly and at no cost.” Of course, it’s a site you don’t want to access in a campus computer lab, as the advertising that keeps the site free is mostly hardcore pornography linking to sites catering to any sexual proclivity you can imagine. Just ask the lab assistant who threatened to kick me out for looking at porn. (I insisted I was doing research, but understandably, she didn’t believe me.)
“We get cussed a lot because we are a couple,” Bill says. “People say ‘why does a couple come on here if they aren’t willing to hook up?’” Dustin agrees, saying that sites like Adam4Adam, which is joined by the likes of gay.com and Manhunt, are mostly intended for men looking for a quickie. “There are a few good people on there, but most of them just want sex,” he says.
I’ve used Adam4Adam, Manhunt, and gay.com before, and in my experience both Bill and Dustin are right: the men on those sites are looking for quickies and fly-by-night romances. They’re not looking for lasting relationships, and they certainly aren’t looking for friends or to network. This isn’t Facebook for fags. It’s more like a 21st century glory hole.
That’s part of the problem, says Jeff Herron, a Professor of Sociology at the University of Kentucky and an HIV prevention specialist focusing in men who have sex with men (“MSM”). He says that in smaller towns, such as Bowling Green, being isolated and the stigma of homosexuality in the local and national culture can have vast consequences for the self-esteem of gay people and drive men into hiding and risky behavior. “There is definitely a sense of alienation,” Herron says. “We’re talking about men who live in areas where not only is there a lack of community, but they often lack MSM peers and social networks.” Herron says that this alienation and lack of community often makes hooking up on sites like Adam4Adam the only viable option. “In rural areas, the internet is vital for them in meeting partners.”
In talking to the different men and women I’ve come in contact with, this seems to be an extremely common problem. “John,” a 19 year old WKU student, who asked not to be identified, says that he meets gay locals online. I meet John at his house, where he is reclined in his bed, comfortable in his gray WKU tee-shirt and gym shorts. His room is dimly lit, with personal mementos draping the walls and ESPN on the television, which he has me mute.
John classifies himself as “semi-closeted,” saying his friends know he is gay but that he prefers to keep a low profile. “I’m straight by day, gay by night,” he says with a sheepish grin. He mentions Manhunt.com specifically, which he says is for “straight up hook ups.” He says he has to go online because there is no bar in Bowling Green for him to meet people. However, he seems unlikely to go. “I like to go places where I’m not going to be recognized.” John says he grew up in a conservative world, and prefers to “keep things orderly.” I ask him if “keeping things orderly” means that being gay is somehow disorderly. He becomes defensive and says that he is afraid of what other people’s reactions might cost him.
I decide to press further, asking John if he is ashamed of being gay. He falls silent, his eyes falling toward the ground. He unfolds his arms and refuses to meet my gaze, staying silent for a good minute, before laughing nervously. “God, I don’t know,” he says finally, a baffled look on his face. He takes a moment to collect his thoughts before adding “I’m sure that’s the case.”
A light at the end of the tunnel?
It’s this level of self-loathing and homophobia that concerned Kat Michael, a junior from Louisville who, last fall, cofounded the Student Identity Outreach, or SIO. “Throughout LGBTQ culture we’ve been trained to operate in the shadows,” she said. Michael wanted to change this.
SIO is the only organization on campus focused on working to provide a safe and educational environment LGBTQ students , she says. Michael serves as the president. “For people from small towns, this is the first they’ve been involved” in the LGBTQ community, she says. “The majority of students are from Kentucky and used to (negative) treatment.” However, she adds that “they become more outraged in SIO seeing they deserve to be treated fairly. They’re grateful to see us on campus.”
She says that the internet is a great way for LGBTQ students to meet, but that it isn’t always ideal. People, she says, “can create a weird persona online. I would rather see you so I can see through you.” Not that she has a chance to meet many women online. The online choices for lesbians are much more limited than for gay men. Michael says they are available, but they’re not popular in Bowling Green. “For the most part there are fewer outlets for lesbian social networking,” Michael says. “It boils down to word of mouth.”
The one common thread that every individual I spoke with shares is the notion that word of mouth is the best way to network with other LGBT locals. Bill and Mark, the couple I spoke to, say they found their friends through other gay friends, and John says that while word of mouth is less important for him, he still finds it useful. Dustin says that word of mouth is how he meets most of his gay friends, and that is what brought him to the SIO meeting last Monday in Tate Page Hall. Dustin was one of 43 people who attended last Monday’s meeting. Though Dustin didn’t meet any potential boyfriends at the meeting, he said it was still nice to be around other gay people. However, he is still apprehensive. “I try not to get my hopes up,” he says.
Kat Michael echoes that sentiment. As we chat in the Subway in Garrett Conference Center, people around us laugh, enjoying an early dinner, and one straight couple catches my eye. They are holding hands and exchange a butterfly kiss, completely oblivious to an equally oblivious world. It dawns on me that if I had done that with a boy the entire restaurant would have been gawking at us. It must have dawned on Kat, too. “I don’t know if in my life I will ever be able to fully and openly love the person I’m with,” she confesses.
However, John, the closeted 19 year old, has higher hopes for his future, despite his apprehension about the present. He says that when he gets a job, gets married and has kids he will keep a picture of his partner and children on his desk, the same as his heterosexual colleagues likely will. “I think that in this new age people are more accepting,” he says.
The mostly unfabulous social life of Ethan Green Skylar Jordan
I haven’t heard from hipster boy Grayson since we hooked up nearly a week ago, and I can say with confidence that it isn’t because I had to ask his name. A closeted boy like Grayson didn’t want to give me his name, and having met online, I have no way of even knowing if Grayson is his actual name. The fact is, though many men will profess their interest in something more than a one-night stand (even if it’s just a regular hookup), the risk is too much for closeted boys. They can’t chance being caught by their friends, their fraternity brothers, their girlfriends.
Bill and Mark, that delightful gay couple I spoke with, say that until the culture of Kentucky changes, not much else can. “There are way too many holy-rollers that would put a stop to any gay bars or gay hangouts that were public,” Mark tells me. I’m afraid he may be right. However, that doesn’t negate the need for something to be done. Kat Michael is doing wonderful work with Student Identity Outreach, but I imagine even she would agree that one night a week isn’t enough. Still, it is something. It gives students like Dustin Bell and John the chance to at least meet other gay individuals in an atmosphere that isn’t rife with the sexual overtones of Adam4Adam or a nightclub in Nashville.
As for now, though, it looks like I’m stuck finding men the new old fashioned way: online. Perhaps, until I leave this town, I am condemned to date closeted fraternity boys and crazy scene kids who cheat on their girlfriends. Perhaps I’m doomed to be hit on by married men who married for no other reason than to hide their sexuality. I mean, it’s kind of hard for a prince on a white horse to gallop up in a chat room that’s sponsored by a site called Chocolate and Cracker Orgies. (I’ll leave it to you to investigate, but I’m sure you can figure it out.)
Of course, while I’ve been writing this, I’ve been sending e-mails back and forth to a rather sexy guy on Adam4Adam. We’re making plans to meet this weekend. Sure, it’s not the fantasy I always had of meeting my dream boy at a gay bookstore or a bar in the gayborhood. But, like I said, in Bowling Green, you take what you can get.
Dating Dilemmas or, The Mostly Unfabulous Social Life of Skylar Baker-Jordan
If you read my feature in the current issue of Rise Over Run, you’ll know that dating isn’t my forte. In fact, for me, dating is an utter disaster. I used to think, like Ethan Green, it was my own damn fault. But the older I get, the more I realize the problem isn’t with me, but with the guys I have to choose from.
After Leo and I broke up–for good–last December, I took a solid eight months off dating. My 2009 new year’s resolution was to remain celibate for a year, but eventually I once again felt up to the challenge of dating. Two months later, I’m beginning to regret this.
It started, oddly enough, with Twitter. Over the summer, I became twitterpated with a bloke I was tweeting back and forth with. I have never met him in person, but he still managed to enchant me. I realized that if a guy could win me over in 140 characters or less, there was probably a guy outside of cyberspace that could truly sweep me off my feet.
I went on my first date since the breakup in August, and it went well. We met online, which if you read Where the Wild Queens Are you’ll know is the only way for gay guys to meet one another in Bowling Green. He was a skateboarder, and he was sexy: thick, chestnut hair; lean, toned body; piercing turquoise eyes. He was sweet, too. He complimented my smile, my curves, and my confidence. I was smitten, and perhaps because of nearly a year’s worth of pent-up sexual energy, I went to bed with him. Afterward, as I was reeling from the release, he jumped up and began hurriedly searching for his shorts. I sat up, a little confused, wondering where the fire is.
Turns out, it was being kept lit by a little Mrs. at home. Skater Boy had a skater girl waiting for him at his–actually, her–apartment. He told me she was asleep on her couch, where she had dozed off before he left. She would be awake soon, he said, and she would want her car back. That’s right–Skater Boy left his sleeping girlfriend on her sofa, took her car, and cheated on her. With me.
I’d love to say that was the worst of it, but we’ve only just gotten started. The next date I had was with this young professional who had recently moved to town. We met for a drink and then went back to his place, which he insisted would be innocent because he wanted a relationship, not a one-night stand. We’d been talking on Manhunt for days (which, in hindsight, should have been my first clue), and he seemed nice enough. Tall, thin, and geeky in a preppy, business major fraternity boy sort of way, he had a sexy uncertainty about everything he did. Adopted by Baptist parents from a Korean orphanage, he is a devout Christian. That didn’t stop Bible Boy from letting me in on his nipple fetish before trying to get in my pants.
He didn’t, though, and after an evening of cuddling and innocent kisses, I went home. He promised to call me the next day after church, and I thought I’d found a guy with potential. I actually missed his call, so he left a voicemail. I was excited to hear from him, but as I listened to his stuttering, nervous voice, I knew this was a message I’d rather have deleted. He rambled on and on about how church had made him realize that this wasn’t what Jesus wanted for his life and how this was not right. “It’s not you, it’s God” is was the gist of the message, which I had to play to my roommates to make sure I’d heard correctly. They confirmed it: I had been dumped for Jesus. How the hell was I expected to compete with heaven?
Despite these early setbacks, I decided to continue trying to find Prince Charming. I’ve been out on several first dates since then, and they’ve all been disasters. The problem is, the guys I end up dating all have debilitating neuroses, most of them are closet cases, and the ones who have potential already have boyfriends. Therefore, I’m stuck dating boys like Hipster Boy. I met him online, too, and because he was “bored,” we decided to “hang out.”
He pulled up outside of my house on a yellow motorcycle, his face obscured behind the oversized helmet. I’d never before thought of motorcycles as sexy–they’ve always reminded me of my father, who is an avid biker–but with Hipster Boy driving, I really wanted to take a ride with him. Little did I know that by the end of the night I’d get my chance.
Thanks to Hipster Boy, I soon found out that “bored” is gay talk for “horny” and “hang out” is meant in a very literal sense. But I’m a good sport, so I went along with him. He was cute, a little scrawny but with a nice arms–I imagine from biking–and a devilish smile. I’d be a liar if I said I didn’t enjoy myself. He enjoyed himself, too, judging from the third and fourth round and the promise to call me soon. A couple weeks passed and I hadn’t heard from him. He finally sent me a text last weekend, while I was in DC for the National Equality March. “Sup?” is all it read.
Now here’s a bit of irony for you. I met a very nice boy in DC. He is adorable, and his personality is golden. A sarcastic, cynical asshole, we can trade witty insults and pithy comments without wincing. He talked about liking skinny boys (which I definitely am not), plus he has a boyfriend, so I never really gave the possibility of dating him a second thought. I figured I’d flirt with him while we were there and that would be the end of it.
Which it would have been, except my lesbian buddy and fruit fly both picked up on the fact that I was shamelessly flirting. As you can imagine, they haven’t let me live it down since we returned home. Always subtle, they still manage to make it clear that they know I fancied this lad without actually saying it.
So for the last week I’ve been pretty dour thanks to the repeated references to Beltway Boy and knowing that, though I’ve finally met a decent guy, he already found his happily ever after. By tonight, home alone for the first time in weeks, I was feeling downright lonely. Needing a confidence boost, I decided to text Hipster Boy. This, it turns out, was a mistake. His response?
“What’s up dude. Sorry Im just getting back 2 u. I’m dating a girl now. So I wont be able 2 c u.” [sic]
Okay, so Hipster Boy now has a hipstress. Damn. Feeling even crappier than I had half an hour before, I turned to my old friends Dorothy, Blanche, Rose, and Sophia to make me laugh. As I sipped on a Diet Pepsi, petting my roommate’s arthritic cat and living vicariously through a group of middle-aged women from circa 1986, I realized how utterly pitiful my life is.
So of course, God said “ha” and decided to make the scene all the more pathetic. My phone vibrated, and I immediately hoped that Hipster Boy felt a change of heart and decided to come play with me instead of hanging out with his girlfriend. Or even better, Beltway Boy had decided he wanted to hang out. Nope, and nope. Instead, Bible Boy texted me, from church, asking what I’m doing. Going back and forth for a while, I finally tell him I want to see him again, not just receive suggestive text messages that he can get off to guilt free. His response?
“Seeing u wouldn’t be the problem–ur right, guilt would be. I have grown up believing that I shouldn’t but I haven’t always done so. 
“ [sic]
He says God’s plan is bigger than anything we mere mortals can possibly understand. I say goodnight.
As if things weren’t depressing enough, I decided to go a step further: I texted Liam asking him to “ring me.” (For those of you who don’t remember, Liam is the really awesome guy I met in London in 2007. If it weren’t for the damned Atlantic Ocean–and Liam’s aversion to honesty–we’d probably still be together.) By this point it’s about 3:30 am in England, and it was obvious Liam had been out on another bender the moment I answer his call. I told him everything, and he proceeded to give me a much-needed pep talk, albeit through a groggy haze of delirium and alcohol.
The abridged version goes something like this: “You’re fierce, you’re fit, you’ve got an amazing accent and sexy broken smile and you’re the best writer I know. You are, by far, the most charming American that has ever lived. So stop your whinging. Or get yourself to Britain where the men appreciate you. Either way shut the bloody hell up and stop dating wankers. Have a good night. Goodbye.” Even though he was clearly annoyed with the fact that I woke him from his liquor-induced coma, I sensed the sincerity behind his words. It was just what I needed.
Still, I wasn’t in a state to sit home by myself, so I took myself for a walk. On that walk, I thought of the boys who’ve meant the most to me. The ones who made me into the man–and the basket case–you know and love. I thought of the abuse I suffered with Benji, the loss I suffered when Brandon passed away, the puppy love I shared with high school sweetheart Ryan and the sheer sexual chemistry I had with Brighton. And then I thought of Leo. And Liam. And the men I’m guilty of doing wrong, like Quint and Daniel, whom I still imagine wonder where the hell I disappeared to when things seemed to be going so well. I began to wonder whether all the hurt and hurting was worth it.
But then I thought of Beltway Boy and his boyfriend. And oddly enough, I smiled. Sure, Beltway Boy isn’t my boyfriend, and probably never will be. But he is somebody’s boyfriend, proving that good guys are out there and that, sometimes, regular guys like me are lucky enough to find one. If Beltway Boy’s boyfriend can find a guy as good as Beltway Boy, surely I can find one, too.
Then I thought of the guy from Twitter, and I smiled even brighter. Though he’s thousands of miles away, he is single, proving that there are great single guys left to choose from.
It’s just a matter of finding the one for you.
Why it doesn’t matter whether there’s a sex scandal surrounding Stephen Gately’s death
Ever since my article on Stephen Gately’s untimely passing went live over at Rise Over Run, I’ve gotten a lot of e-mails and comments from people telling me they feel the same way. Stephen Gately had a huge impact on my generation of gay men, and his death has left us reeling with sadness. Boyzone fans and the gay community in Britain and Ireland have rallied around Stephen’s husband, internet mogul Andrew Cowles, his family, and his band. We’ve accepted the Spanish coroner’s report that he died of a congenital heart disorder that went tragically undetected. And we’ve accepted that Georgi Dochev, the Bulgarian who claims to have found Stephen dead, was present, though why he was there and what he did or didn’t do remains murky.
Queerty was the first media outlet to insinuate Dochev’s presence was anything but innocent when they ran the headline “The 3-Way Sex Scandal That’s Accompnying Stephen Gately’s Death” on Tuesday. I read with disgust, wondering how a gay website could possibly slander the name of our very own boy next door. This outrage grew even more today, when the Daily Mail ran Jan Moir’s now-infamous column, in which she questioned the circumstances surrounding Stephen’s death, in the process revealing her own ignorance and heterosexism. Twitter is outraged, the British public is disgusted, and Jan Moir is public enemy number one.
It is normal to speculate as to what happened that night, and with the facts we have, it is natural to assume there may be something more to this story we don’t know. That being said, Stephen Gately was a hero to many, myself included, 
and an important figure in the history of gay and lesbian Britain. He was, without a doubt, one of the most important figures from my childhood, and I would not be where I am if it weren’t for the example he set a decade ago. It’s to be expected that gay Britain and Ireland feels defensive and protective of his memory–and we should. What we recognize, and want the rest of the world to recognize, is that while yes, our minds may wander to the more sordid details of this (or any) story, why Dochev was there just isn’t important. He didn’t kill Stephen, as Stephen wasn’t murdered. So therefore, it really is nobody’s business. What happened–or was meant to happen–shouldn’t be our focus.
The incredible, undeniable, charming and lovable talent of Stephen Gately and the tragedy of his passing should be our only concern. We have lost an incredibly talented man, and we should let him rest in peace. We may never know why Stephen and Andrew brought Dochev back to their home, and that’s fine. Because what Stephen Gately deserves right now, more than anything, is respect. He doesn’t deserve the British public, and certainly not Queerty and Jan Moir, speculating about the circumstantial evidence surrounding the nature of his evening as if it were true. For all we know, Andrew slept on the floor that night.
In the end, none of it matters. Whatever happened or didn’t happen, Stephen Gately is gone, dead from natural causes at 33. He was too young to have died, and the world has lost a gentle soul and gifted entertainer. That is what matters. That is all that matters.
Why the National Equality March was a success
By the time I got home Monday morning, I was totally exhausted, having driven the nearly 700 miles from DC back to BG the night before. However, the sheer magic of the day before was still with me, and I couldn’t help but forget how I had felt looking up at the flag flying over Capitol Hill. “This,” I thought, “is America.” Looking around me, I saw people of all races, all ethnicities—men and women from all 50 states marching together in the name of equality. That was the magic and beauty of Sunday’s National Equality March.
That’s a nice feeling to have, considering I was skeptical, to say the least, when the march was first proposed by David Mixner and Cleve Jones back in May. Don’t get me wrong, I love big dramatic displays, and this march certainly had all the pageantry one could hope for. But I didn’t think it was necessarily pragmatic. Would they come? Sure. I mean, Mixner and Jones are the closest our movement has to elder statesmen, and the youth (myself included) were and are restless with the lack of progress being made, our passions being ignited or reignited following Prop 8. But was a massive march on Washington really going to make a political or strategic difference?
In reflecting on the weekend, the short answer is “no.” Congress wasn’t in session, they’re preoccupied with healthcare reform, and President Obama, while giving a lovely speech to the Human Rights Campaign on Saturday, still hasn’t acted on any of his promises and refuses to lay out a timeline for the repeal of Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell, among other issues. Yes, the Matthew Shepherd Act has inched closer to passage, and while welcome news, it is more an attempt to placate LGBT activists than anything.
Still, the march was a success. Even if it doesn’t have direct political or legal implications for the gay community, it still did one important thing: it motivated and inspired millions. Many of us, though passionate about the movement, have been pretty discouraged. How could we not? Marriage amendments in 37 states, including California thanks to Prop 8; no federal employment nondiscrimination law; violence and harassment in schools and workplaces; and no organized, cohesive movement pushing to change this. We’ve seen our supposed leaders bickering over semantics and tactics and even duking it out for credit and glory, all the while forgetting this new generation.
I’ve been actively involved in the struggle for LGBT equality since 2004, when Kentucky passed its odious anti-marriage amendment. Soon after, the gay movement in Kentucky fell apart, to put it nicely. The leadership began shirking their responsibilities and a bunch of college students, including myself, really took up the mantle of leadership. When Jason Johnson was expelled for being gay by the University of the Cumberlands in 2006, it was the Kentucky Collegiate Coalition, led by students from all over Kentucky, which took up the cause and staged the protest. It was KCC that had conference calls in consultation with GLAAD. Yes, the Kentucky Fairness Alliance, our statewide equality lobby, sprung for hotel rooms and “officially” cosponsored the rally with us, but it was Kentucky college students that led the movement against the University of the Cumberlands receiving public funds.
But eventually, we got burned out. With no real support coming from the national organizations, which seemed unable to be bothered with a flyover state, and with our state organizations disintegrating into bickering and catty gay drama, the college students didn’t know where to go. I’ll be the first to say that at 20 years old I was not prepared to be one of the statewide gay leaders. The pressure got too much, and many of us simply moved on to other projects. We lost a lot of bright young gay people to the environmental lobby, education lobby, and other progressive causes. That’s not to diminish the importance of these other causes, but we need our best and brightest working for our equality, too.
The burnout experienced by many of us from 2004-2006 was replaced by rage and resolve after Prop 8. We were aching for a way to involve ourselves, to be proactive, and to take this fight “out of the bars and into the streets.” Prop 8 was a poorly run campaign, and the state leaders in California hardly deserve to be labeled as such. The same seems to be true for most states. The national organizations, on the other hand, took far too cautious an approach. Perhaps they’ve been inside the beltway too long, but they are much more interested in playing the political game in DC than doing much of anything on the ground in a state like Washington, Maine, and certainly not Kentucky.
My generation—the Millennials—are a generation of “now.” We’re not used to waiting. If I want to know what my best friend is doing, I’ll text her. If I want to hear Leona Lewis’s new song, I can download it on iTunes without leaving my bedroom. If I want to read the latest news on Darfur, there are countless websites with endless updates. We want things when we want them, and in our minds, patience isn’t a virtue—it’s unnecessary.
HRC, GLAAD, and the countless other organizations don’t seem to get this. They counsel patience—patience with state laws, patience with Congress, patience with President Obama. But patience isn’t a virtue learned by my generation, and in this case, it serves us well. For we can ill afford to be patient any longer. Not when our brothers and sisters are suffering. Not when we are suffering.
Prop 8 woke up the gay community, especially Millennials, to the reality that equality doesn’t just happen. We’re going to have to fight for it. I think that was the point of the National Equality March. It was to show the world that we’ve been awakened. We get it now.
I’ve heard it said that this weekend was the passing of the torch. The old guard has handed off the reins of the movement to a new generation of leaders, in our 20s and 30s, who are going to now do things our way. I don’t know if this will happen right away, but I definitely think my generation is going to demand more of a presence at the table. We want our voices heard, and our elders are going to have to listen. Whether they will do this willingly is yet to be known.
What I do know, though, is what was evident in the eyes of the young college students I traveled with. Yes, they went for Lady Gaga. Yes, they went to be a part of history. But something happened while they were there. I saw in them an awakening, an understanding, a deeply personal connection forged to their cause and their identity. I saw the tenacity of their convictions in their eyes, heard the resolve of their commitments in their chants, and felt their deepened understanding of the stakes and the movement. They get it.
This is why the National Equality March was a success. For the first time, the Millennials were given an avenue to show what they have to offer our movement, and I have to say, we showed everyone else up. Where the national leaders have been content to wait, the Millennials descended on DC to show that we will wait no longer. It’s not our forte. We don’t even like to wait for espresso, so why would we wait for equality? It’s true that the march may not change the hearts and minds of politicians. But it did something just as important: it opened and inspired the hearts and minds of LGBT youth.
